It is the weekend before the trip and I am not entirely sure how to begin preparing myself. I think that my first lesson as one of the leaders of this trip is that I have to be ok with the unknown. Unfortunately, that is my biggest fear. My mental babble quickly begins to stir. Thoughts such as not being prepared enough, skilled enough, and courageous enough came in waves.
As we start getting ready for the trip, my worry increases by my workload and interviews I have scheduled in hopes of a promotion within the company that I work for. I feel like I am leaving a lot behind unfinished and unsettled.
As I allow these negative thoughts to come in, I start seeking coping mechanisms. Everyone person I shared with about the experience is so excited for me, and I am trying super hard to be. I met with mentors; I did yoga daily, I meditated daily, I read books daily, and went on many long walks to try to relax. However, during my meeting with Dr. Scott, she gave me a book that could quite possibly help with this. She told me about positive affirmations and how reading them daily could be helpful. I do not think she knew that I was feeling this way, but it is incredible how much this small tip is helping me.
I feel now, so excited to take on a journey with a group who equally has no idea what we are all about to face. All we know is that this is the experience of a lifetime. I also know that these incredible students are all so bright and diligent. Every day I am more impressed by their capabilities as well as my own. I can’t wait to see what this week holds for us all!